Tues, 14th Nov 2006
I was extremely nervous during my AS debate. The motion was 'Religious tolerance is better than freedom of speech.' Damned topic, seriously. Cos it's so boring. Other groups had topics about setting up a condom vending machine in school which would be so much more interesting! Anyways. This was the first time I was shaking so badly during a presentation. I had to memorize my bloody 5 min script, say it out to the audience as natural as possible, while varying my pitches and tones so as to appear aggressive. Several times I forgot my lines, paused, looked at my cue cards, and 'flipped', cos my cue cards didn't include the exact sentence I needed to say at that point of time. Nevertheless, I got through the damned debate and learned more about the importance of religious tolerance!! Those bloody terrorists - it's their fault for everything bad in the world today.

Was totally relieved after that, and met Jade for dinner. Went to Aerin's to eat. She had grilled chicken and I had some apple crumble with vanilla bean ice-cream. For the price you pay, the food's not too worth it. Ambience is great though. It's amazing how both of us are still in contact after 6 years. I knew her when she was in secondary 1, with red hair, short skirt and high socks. You would just laugh knowing how we looked then. I could remember myself with gold rimmed spectacles, short hair, long skirt, high socks with the classic red lined U.S. Master school shoes. Hilarious! And we all look so different now, speak different now, and think different now.

Time changes one, doesn't it? From gossiping about classmates, hanging out at heartland malls after school, chatting in the playground at midnight, bummin around at Jade's place, taking neoprints in town, being teased by Ming and James, sharing ice-cream and messing the restaurant's table up, we have evolved to young adults, seriously thinking about family, school and money. That should be good right? But somehow I feel an invisible distance has grown between Jade and I, and I feel sad. So long she's in my heart, everything's going to be alright.

I returned home and saw a huge bag of necklace on my bed! Jie had returned from Shanghai and bought about 9 necklaces for me! Was so delighted; the necklaces were all so pretty, flower brooches, pearls, gold chains, codurory straps, ribbons and many unique beads! Had a headache about where to put them though cos I had losta, losta necklaces all over my room already. Jie also bought a pair of ivory shoes for me, fit me too perfectly, a little too tight for 100% comfort. When my bloody toe recovers, I'll wear them out.



Sun, 12th Nov 2006
Speaking about my toe, I carelessly walked into a mirror on the floor in my room on Sunday (my birthday). It was the 50th time I had walked into that mirror, and after each time I would yell and grab my last toe tightly to ease the pain. But the 50th time, on my 20th birthday, was DIFFERENT. When I grabbed my toe, my palms were laced with blood. AHHHHHHHHH!!!
But I still left the house, dragging my left feet and walking the entire day. I didn't know the wound was that bad, till it started hurting a little more than I thought it should.

Wed, 15th Nov 2006
Had MA lessons in the morning. Prof gave me a pen for being in the 1st quarter of the class! How nice of her to encourage her students before the exams! I will do my best, Prof!! Prof passed the test papers to a dumbo guy to distribute to the class, and I was so unlucky that he came to my table and asked me to help him give them out cos he weren't sure of the names of our classmates. No, I was not unlucky cos he asked me. It was because while distributing the test papers to my classmates, my injured last toe accidentally hit the leg of a random chair in the seminar room. The chairs are the cushioned ones with roller wheels. DAMN FUGGING PAIN!! And that morning I was still contemplating if I should wear shoes to school instead. I worn my papillios instead. Just damn sueh can. Not enough, I didn't realise my toe was bleeding until I felt a lot more pain rushing to my feet. Was whining in pain to Ru for the rest of the lesson.

So I say it's that dumbo guy's fault lor. And I had to go the school's clinic to get medicine. The doctor says if it doesn't recover a week later, he might have to remove my toe nail! WTF. I went through that last year ON MY BIRTHDAY, no way you're going to take my nail out from the VERY SAME foot again la! Whats more I don't like to wear slipper de. Why am I so sueh for consecutive 2 birthdays?? Only this time the accident was due to my careless strutting around in MY bedroom. Stupid me larz!

My last toe nail is soaked with dried blood, and it hurts so pain even if it is in slight contact with anything. MY PRETTY SHOES!!! Can't wear my pretty shoes for the time being. My wardrobe is not customized for papillios and beaded slippers. NB.



Thurs, 16th Nov 2006
Spent the entire day at home. Was supposed to meet Per and Zech for a movie but I was too lazy to travel to town cos I have to go school tomorrow. I watched 3 episodes of 'Wei Xiao PASTA' from 4am - 7am! It's a typical love story plot where a girl commoner meets guy rock star on the street, commoner accidentally gets entangled in media frenzy for accidentally being seen with the rock star, and both of them gradually falls in love. Cyndi acts as the commner, and Malaysia's Zhang Dong Liang is the rock star. They don't seem too compatible. Cyndi's the typical Taiwanese girl la, skinny, cutesy actions, sai nai voice and dolly with loads of mascara. Zhang Dong Liang has a strong boyish charm, reserved and pleasant - NOT IN SYNC with rock star's image. Anyway since I don't feel like studying I might as well spend my time watching this ou xiang ju.

Jie bought me 'Full House' DVD! Aiyo, like that how to study for exams??????