Tuesday, February 20, 2007
miniature toy dolls
i don't know if they were made of wax or plastic
it happened right in front of my eyes
one instant on a monochrome television screen
and the next the television zoomed me in the actual scene
they died, with eyes wide open
their bodies fell from the sky and turned black
seconds later their souls were lifted to the sky
but their souls were a white colour!
horrified, i turned away from the sight
was God trying to tell me something? but for sure, I knew good won over evil.
mother led me from the top of the building to a garden
there was the gleaming blue ocean
with thunderously high waves
reminded me of a disaster
disasters that killed innocents
disasters that created creepy mournings into nightfall
many pretty purple flowers in the garden
but, scattered around barren soil and dust
is that my perception of happiness now? horrificably warped? that it must be accompanied by death, sin, dirt and grudges? Lord, I wait for the affliction to pass, so I may be more deserving of your wonderous grace.
Monday, February 19, 2007
The Wanderer's Song
Wandering is the shepherd's sense of direction clear skies dark skies or a rainy day
Never ask whose tears are those tears that flow to the furthest place
The breeze in September blows at the most hurting part of my heart
The dandelion is drifting in the air without any direction
In my dreams you said so softly that you're leaving my world
never never shall I see spring again
Wandering is the shepherd's sense of direction clear skies dark skies or a rainy day
Never ask whose tears are those tears that flow to the furthest place
The lonely wild forest fire dyes the entire sky an orangish red
Where is the corner where I can stop for a rest
Broken off all contact with the world but can't break off my pain
From now on I let free myself can't find back my smiles
Wandering is the shepherd's sense of direction clear skies dark skies or a rainy day
Do not ask anymore who should walk towards whom I walk to the furthest place
Wandering is the shepherd's sense of direction clear skies dark skies or a rainy day
Never ask whose tears are those tears that flow to the furthest place
The breeze in September blows at the most hurting part of my heart
The dandelion is drifting in the air without any direction
In my dreams you said so softly that you're leaving my world
never never shall I see spring again
Wandering is the shepherd's sense of direction clear skies dark skies or a rainy day
Never ask whose tears are those tears that flow to the furthest place
The lonely wild forest fire dyes the entire sky an orangish red
Where is the corner where I can stop for a rest
Broken off all contact with the world but can't break off my pain
From now on I let free myself can't find back my smiles
Wandering is the shepherd's sense of direction clear skies dark skies or a rainy day
Do not ask anymore who should walk towards whom I walk to the furthest place
Por los momentos dificiles
ya entendi que la flor mas bella
seria siempre para mi
Lydia
(because of all the tribulations, i finally realise, that the most beautiful flower, blossoms for itself, not for anyone, or anything else)
Lydia those distant eyes why do the tears stray the heartbroken ocean
Been so hurt even the smile seems confused
Who does the gypsy lady sing for
You will see the dark sky see the clouds see the bright sun
The big cracked earth in the dry dessert sees its drought and pain repeating
He's gone but can't take your sky away
After the damp wind dries up there will be the rainbow's tears
He's gone but you can keep your hopes and dreams
There will be a place waiting for love to spread its wings
Lydia happiness is not in a distant place open one side of the window and make a wish
You will feel love feel hate feel forgiveness
Life is not only full of sadness and sorrow
I'm so happy to be able to spend more time with Jie during my mid-term break!!
Sunday, February 18, 2007
It's all about SUNSHINE in this entry! Specially for my sister. I think she's prolly sick of seeing pictures of me.
Sunshine is the cutest king of all hamsters. Snowy is the queen, that goes without saying.
And more of Sunshine's daily activities. He is my very adorable baby.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Hey folks I'm so sorry for the inconvenience now that I've restricted my blog to only invited readers. All along I've considered my blog to be a very personal one, where only trusted and close friends are aware of my blog address. But a blog being an online diary, is still open to public access at anytime, that's why I've been searching means to password protect my blog. However, I'm obviously not an IT-savvy person and those java scripting processes are idioticily complex.
I gave a friend my blog address, and he gave it to his girlfriend without my permission after promising me not to tell anyone about my blog site. And he told me not to mention anything about him in my blog lest his girlfriend sees it and gets hysterical.
In the first place, SIRE, you broke your promise, and now you're telling not to write certain stuff on MY BLOG! And his girlfriend thinks her boyfriend is SUPERBLY HOT and that any girl that talks to him is possibly attracted to him. The gist is, I DON'T LIKE THE GIRLFRIEND VERY MUCH AS WELL BECAUSE SHE WAS A FREE-RIDER IN MY PROJECT GROUP, AND ACTS LIKE A BLOODY SPOILT PRINCESS EVERYONE MUST LISTEN TO HER COMMANDS.
So my blog is now only restricted to invited readers. This is way more secure than a password-protected blog where SOME IDIOTS could tell strangers my blog password as well.
By the way, this same male friend of mine tells him he thinks he is hot. OMG. People who are hot will never praise themselves. Like what Peanut said, self-praise is no praise and I absolutely agree. He is not only "HOT", he is also very unconsiderate. I accompanied him to town to select a Valentine's Day present for his stupid girlfriend, and he rode there. When he stopped to park the bike, HE GOT DOWN THE BIKE FIRST.
I have never seen anyone so bloody dumb and inconsiderate. As a rider, you should make sure your pillion gets off the bike safely before you yourself get down. And FREAK, I was wearing a skirt. After he got down, he appeared as if his job was done. Didn't even LIFT A BLOODY FINGER to help me down whatsoever. I attempted to get down while holding on his shoulders (he was standing beside the bike on the ground), and GUESS WHAT.
THE ENTIRE BIKE FELL. AND FELL ON MY LEGS.
My legs hurt so badly, but I was still very apologetic to my friend because there would be scratches on his bike. He tried to get the bike up, but didn't have enough strength. Another guy came along to help him. It was a bloody heavy bike you see. But the truth was, I was damn fucking angry. He didn't even apologise to me. He still argued that I should have get down the bike on the other side so that the bike wouldn't topple. FRIG YOU ARSEHOLE.
I told this to Zech and Roy, who ride bikes as well. They were also very surprised my friend had gotten off the bike without waiting for me to get off first. Roy was quite annoyed at my friend being so inconsiderate, and more upset, that the bike had fell on me.
I AM NEVER GOING OUT WITH THIS FRIEND OF MINE AGAIN. BLOODY FUCKER. IN FACT I DON'T EVEN CONSIDER HIM A FRIEND ANYMORE. He lost my trust and I think he's too immature. If his heavy bike had fallen on my entire body instead, I would like to see how he can answer to my parents.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
I didn't intend to get any clothes for Chinese New Year, because I'm dead broke. I told Mummy I would be happy if I could get one dress and a pair of shoes. I got the shoes, but those were for my Comms presentation next week, so I guess they ain't really for CNY.
Then, my best friend gave me a dress!! I was so delighted! I love dresses!! Mummy is very particular about us wearing black clothes for CNY, and I asked Mummy if I could wear this new dress. Mummy smiled and said the dress wasn't that black with all the prints. I don't know if that is a yes or no. We shall see then! I was planning to fall back on my existing wardrobe for CNY visiting anway.
But I'm a little sad because the dress doesn't fit me very well. Waisted belts can do a little trick I hope!
The dress my darling bought for me. Pretty pink and purple flowers.
And I came across a tube I liked very much, and took 4 days to decide if I should buy it. I'm very much in navy blue with white prints these days! So this is my official CNY clothing! Which is only a pathetic top la. Haha!!
Pretty rose!
And I've been wishing for necklaces like these:
I took these pictures off an online site. A pity they are sold out!! I'm trying to get Angie to make something similar for me.
Then, my best friend gave me a dress!! I was so delighted! I love dresses!! Mummy is very particular about us wearing black clothes for CNY, and I asked Mummy if I could wear this new dress. Mummy smiled and said the dress wasn't that black with all the prints. I don't know if that is a yes or no. We shall see then! I was planning to fall back on my existing wardrobe for CNY visiting anway.
But I'm a little sad because the dress doesn't fit me very well. Waisted belts can do a little trick I hope!
The dress my darling bought for me. Pretty pink and purple flowers.
And I came across a tube I liked very much, and took 4 days to decide if I should buy it. I'm very much in navy blue with white prints these days! So this is my official CNY clothing! Which is only a pathetic top la. Haha!!
Pretty rose!
And I've been wishing for necklaces like these:
I took these pictures off an online site. A pity they are sold out!! I'm trying to get Angie to make something similar for me.
I'm really sorry to scare you guys, but I must really tell you how bad my left eye has gotten. Last week the eyelid was swollen, I saw a doctor, applied medicine, and it was fine after two to three days.
This week, the eyelid became swollen again, and my eyeball also wanted a share of red colour, for some bloody reason. I applied the medicine, but seems like it's not working its wonders. I leave my eye alone and stubbornly wear contact lenses everyday to school and work.
This is probably one the most gruesome pictures of me. With such swollen and watery eyes, I cannot sleep really well. Attribute my dark eye rings to that.
Finally!! Pictures of Bona 5ides very first Christmas dinner! Post-christmas dinner, rather. We all came together on Boxing Day last year. (Be VERY prepared for a long splash of photos and collages.)
The Kitchen Staff: Pris, Per, Bern and Athey!! Per's mother helped to set the dinner table - so lovely! I had to take a snapshot of each and every table piece.
The dress theme of our dinner cum party was to wear anything gold in colour. Most unfortunately, ONLY the 4 of us kept to the theme.
Bern >> Necklace
Per >> Earrings & Necklace
Athey >> Earrings & Waisted Belt
Pris >> Stud earrings
And look at our delectable menu of mouth-watering courses!
And we most definitely did not leave out dessert.
Peanut brought along stollen bread. We say she STOLE the bread.
And we made a very delicious chocolate fondue! I love how we are so creative in food!
The folks I love the most in this planet.
And we had a Christmas gift-exchange! We lit candles, switched off the lights, to create a romantic atmosphere.
The majestic mantelpiece.
Bern went crazy with the lighter. Anyways there were strawberry tealight candles for each of us seated at the table. Nicey smell!
Because it was intended to be a "mystery gift-giving", the rule was for everyone to close their eyes, and the mystery person giving the present to silently lay the present in front of his/her other mystery person, so that when everyone opened their eyes they would know who gave who.
Athena to Pris
Xiu to Eric&Cyn
Kenny to Xiu
Cyn to Kenny
Chris to Cyn
Cyn to Bern
Per to Chris
Bern to Per
If you realised, there's no photographs of me receiving my present from my mystery person! And no, I wasn't the photographer of the day. Per simply forgot to upload my photos from her cam to her computer! Ah! Next time!
And a final last collage.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
I realise I seldom post solitary pictures of myself! So here's one for the drama queens! I learnt how to be self-obsessed from Pudge and Pervert.
Monday, February 05, 2007
Jie is back from States and I was so happy to be able to spend some quality time with her on Friday and Saturday! She bought me a pretty purple Tinkerbell photo frame from DisneyLand and 4 pairs of Disney Princess Treasures' Neckalces! Now everyone knows I love Tinkerbell and buys me Tinkerbell stuff =D
Jie re-stocked her baking cupboard with more Betty Crocker stuff! Delighted me just had to snap photos of these to show you guys.
Cakes.
Chocolate Fudge.
Orange Dreamslice.
Yellow Butter.
Cookies & Muffins.
Blurberry Muffins. I told Jie there is absolutely nothing from a blueberry bush that is in this satchet. Jie said she doesn't care.
Oatmeal Chocolate Chip.
Cornbread Muffin. Think Kenny Rogers' famour corn muffins. Are you excited????\
My sister loves to bake and she's a great baker!! Can't wait for her to make ALL OF THESE so Ken and I can gobble them up.
And Jie is fascinated with miniature food items. They are all pretty adorable, I must say.
This is one of my favourites. The height of a lighter!
Tobasco sauce and Olive oil! Jie loves the Strawberry Shortcake figurine.
Mini jam and honey bottles.
Djon Mustard and Real Mayonnaise. I don't like the word 'real'. If mayonnaise is fake why would anyone wanna manufacture and even sell it? It must be some kind of industry jargon.
Olive Oil. This is really pretty. Good with Foccacia bread - I lurveee!!
Slept over at Jie's place and we ordered "Black Night" on Demand TV! Jie always orders Demand TV when I sleep over and she will purchase those ghost shows - I DON'T LIKE! Scary scary. But turns out each time the shows we bought are NOT scary at all, but rather, very very lame. Then Jie and I would curse when they are showing the credits.
Spent the Saturday at Northpoint. WHAT A BORING PLACE RIGHT. And a place full of happy and sad memories. Jie and I were complaining how pathetic our weekend was, killing time in some ulu part of Singapore, and walking around in a sad sad heartland mall. Then Jie brought me to Yishun dam! I've been to Yishun so many times but I have never beeb there before!
The scenery, the air, it was fantastic! People fishing, children flying kites, couples talking, birds flying in unison, a rare sight to be seen when we're so hustled up in our high-rise flats. The breeze was so cool, and pretty strong, nearly blew me off to the road. The golf course in the distance made the entire scenery picturesqe.
Pity I wasn't in a very good mood to take pictures.
Back at home Jie told me all about her trip to DisneyLand and Universal Studios! I was going gaga and screaming over the pictures! I decided, one of my dream holiday destinations would be DisneyLand! I wanna take pictures with all my favourite Disney Princesses and Jack Sparrow! I wanna go on all the exciting rides and search for treasures in the Princess Castle! I wanna go to Minnie's house and see the popcorn POP in her microwave oven! I wanna experience the 3D theatre! EVERYTHING!
Didn't want to go home but I had tons of work to do. I HATE SCHOOL.