Friday!! Finally I get to spend more quality time with my dearie Ru and Ah Liang! Though the quality time is like - MUGGING. But frankly half of the time we're bitching about some arrogant freaks in our school. Rofl!

Ru was getting high about her new N73 phone and 3.2 megapixel cam. She insisted that we be her subjects for testing her cam.

And of course, the long-awaited pictures for my girl.

Then I chilled with Cyn at Citylink Mall after that. Good to see my baby after so long. For the first time, she did a multi-shot without bursting into laughter. Good, she's becoming like one of us. LOL.

And I bumped into Angie, Pauline and Lester!! Was so happy to see all of them, especially Angie. Funny cos I can yak non-stop to Lester outside school but we hardly talk during lessons. OK I WILL ATTEMPT TO COME EARLY FOR BIZ LAW FOR THE SAKE OF LESTER CHIA!! Chummy chummy brotha!!

4 wounds within a week. A huge black cloud over me I reckon, and it really rains some days.

The blister on my left foot.

The blister on my right foot.

And the irritating razor cut.

I've got one more on the side of my right hand, got cut by the metal wires in Papa's van. Because I still have to go to school everyday, I have resorted to pasting plasters on the blisters to cushion the wounds from my shoes. Haiz.

A sms conversation I had with Pudge on Saturday while I was on the way to meet her.

Pudge: I'm at starhub now. The starhub counter staff are all very pleasant looking. Do you think it's a pre-requisite? Hmmm.... Hahahahahaha :-) Sorry. I'm like damn bored. And people keep staring at me coz of my hair. Or... cozI'm drop dread gorgeous. Heh. I go with the latter.

Pops: I think it's because of your hair, you're really pretty, I mean it. Enjoy all the attention, lady! You deserve it!

Pudge: Pukes Pukes! My hair looks the same lei. If not worse. Hahahahaha :-) I feel like goin downstairs to shop. I'm very dressed down today. Hmmm :-) I know, I'm having very random thoughts.

Pops: About what? About me? About us? Imagine us walking down the beach holding hands with our toes in the sand

Pudge: And going back to the hotel for some nasty love-making :-) Hahahahaha

I decided, when Pris has a smiley face in her messages, it doesn't literally mean like a sweet or simple smile, it's a HORNY SMILE! Wild child!

And another collage of Zechie and Peanut.

After the 2 office ladies returned to work, the 2 struggling students and 1 army boy headed to Ben & Jerry's to EAT ICE-CREAM!!! Each of us chose a flavour for the Sundae Mix.

Zech - New York Super Fudge Chocolate

Bern - Strawberry Cheesecake

Me - Dublin Mudslide

Thank you for the treat Zech!! It's gonna be Swensen's next time. I realise, my eye bags and dark eye rings are swinging out of control. I'm really sad la. And I really have an 'Olive' figure. Why can't I have a 'Betty Boop' figure.

LTB lesson was fun because of my dear Garden Monkeys! I kept making lame jokes and bimbo comments, Preston kept sniggering and Shi Ying kept giggling. Sek Chian was sitting too far from us and he has always been SIAN la. Shi Jia was looking really bored. Regina was very attentive in class! Later Preston, Shiing and I started doodling on Shiing's tablet PC, while trying not to get caught by Prof. My LTB prof is very strict and professional in her teaching, if she finds out we've been playing in her class she'll murder us till we cry, I tell ya. Anyway, we started a horrid story about dog shit. Preston tried to get back at me by creating a lame Chinese story about me making out with XXX XXX in a park. STUPID PRESTON.

Now, today, Tuesday Jan 23rd 2007. I seldom say I have a really bad day with bouts of bad luck, but today, I can really say I did. And I had a superbly bad one as well. As usual, MUACK MUACK PAPA CAME TO MY RESCUE!! Love Papa to bits, he's the bestie!!

While showering, I accidentally cut my leg with the Venus blade. And I didn't just cut any part of my leg, I cut a wound! I was happily sliding the blade up, when the blade suddenly bumped over something (my wound) and slided to the left. It didn't hurt, but the new wound (over the old wound) kept bleeding. Even after splashing running water down the wound, it refused to stop bleeding. I was in a rush, so I just stuffed a tissue over the wound once I was out of the bathroom.

When I stepped out of the house, feeling very irritated with a heavy bag, a thick Business Law textbook and a damned laptop, I rushed up the stairs to the life landing. Instinctively, I looked down at my shoes. I always do that because I'm afraid the stair steps will dirty the head of my shoes and if they do dirty I wanna clean or rub them off on the spot. But this time, I saw blood. SPLATTERED ALL ACROSS MY RIGHT FEET AND ANKLE. With 3 fresh splatters because I ran up one step. I started to curse at my bad luck, and clumpsily grabbed tissue from my bag to wipe the blood.

THE BLOOD COULDN'T BE WIPED. I cursed more. Because when I wore my shoes I was positive I didn't see any blood. I had to go back to the house, fumbling with my housekeys and textbook and laptop, run to the toilet, and use soap and water to SCRUB off all the splattered blood. And my wound kept bleeding.

I couldn't care less, went to my room, and stuffed tissue on my wound to stop the bleeding. IT JUST, WOULDN'T STOP. Fine. I had no time. I opened my drawers, trying to find a proper plaster. NO PROPER PLASTERS. Only the very tiny ones and the very big ones were left. SO I RELUCTANTLY OPENED MY DISNEY PRINCESS HANDIPLAST. The biggest plaster was also quite tiny. I took a Snow White plaster and randomly pasted it over my wound.

Rushed through the mad crowd at Tampines Mall, queued at the ATM, went up to Popular level 3 to buy a letter set, bumped into Wei Wei and chatted for 2 minutes, rushed to the MRT station. I was relieved when I finally sat down in the train, took out my Biz Law weekly outline to read while being plugged into my fave music.

And. THE TRAIN STOPPED AT BEDOK. Lights were suddenly switched off in the train, and the train doors were left open. The train personnel made an announcement that there was a train stuck at Eunos and there would be a long delay before the train service would resume. They also said we had to take other forms of transport and no train service was available. HOW FRIGGIN SUEH CAN I GET, TELL ME. So everyone, everyone, like a huge group of honey bees, proceeded down the platform and got out of the station. The faregates were open, we didn't need to scan our ez-link cards. I WAS GOING TO BE LATE FOR SCHOOL, AGAIN.

I called Daddy and asked him to fetch me to school from Bedok MRT. Everyone, everyone was flagging wildy for a cab. How can I compete with them when I'm so clumpsy with a heavy bag, a thick Business Law textbook and a damned laptop. On top of that, blisters had formed on my feet. ARGGHHHHHHHHH!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE DAY MAN! I have worn this shoes for 3 hour shopping trips, nothing's happened, and now, not even an hour has passed I have BLISTERS!!

Luckily Daddy was in the vicinity and came in 10 minutes. I was only late for school for about 15 mins. So pai seh lor! I always come late for Biz Law! As I walked past the professor, I stopped, bowed and apologised in a meek voice for being late. AND GUESS WHAT. He ignored me. Because he didn't hear me. AND SOME OF MY CLASSMATES LAUGHED AT ME. I think Lester, Aaron, Yu Ping, Sian Kim and Regina were some of the culprits. Lolx.

My bad luck didn't just end here. Slightly later. When I was switching on my laptop, the laptop wire detached from the main wire. So my laptop blacked out. When I switched it on again, it took 10 minutes to start up, and hanged. HANGED ON ME. I only managed to get my computer started and running after 1 hour into the lesson. Marvellous I didn't slam my laptop on the table or something. My bad luck ended about here, hehe. YEAH!!!!

My prof is so nice he doesn't lay down rules that forbid us to use our laptops during class. If not I'll be, totally bored to death. Business Law is a really detestable subject, if you ask me. FRIG CONSIDERATION FORBEARANCE TO SUE ADDITIONAL CONTRACTUAL DUTY. FRIG ALL OF THEM, PLEASE.

Prof is such a nice guy! Totally sweet. I apologised to him for being late in class, and he gave me a wide smile reassuring me that 'Oh it's ok, no problem at all'. SO CHARMING!! And he really took the effort to explain to me what forbearance to sue was all about. Difficult to really concentrate on what he is actually saying, cos Prof looks so cute! My prof is not a stinking old man with white hair and a grumpy face, he is only 35 but looks 28 (to me lah), charismatic and pleasant, and has a cute ass!! Seriously! I think he enjoys wearing tight fitting clothes. And you know he carries a square Camper bag to class! Yes, with smart office wear. So funny right!

Daddy fetched me home from Lavender MRT and the rest of the night was ok. I miss Jie a lot, I've been faithfully logging online every night, but she's not online. Jie must be busy sight-seeing, making roadtrips, reading the map while Ken drives, wearing nice winter clothes and taking losta pictures. Does Jie think of me so much too?? I'm very lonely when Jie is not around, I can't go out with her and Ken on the weekends now that they're out of SG. Come back quick so we can discuss about your wedding, I wanna be part of the planning!!

It's 1.35am. Supposed to be researching for my Communications project, but I can't concentrate. That's why I'm blogging. I have too much on my mind these past months. Tomorrow I've got a long day. FA lesson from 830 - 1145, Comms meeting from 1.30 - 3.30, LTB meeting from 5.00 - 8.00. I can't even bring myself to breathe in all of that.

But I look forward to Thursday! Cos I'm going to meet Ren Bing. I guess, we may have parted in a tearful way, but I want the parting to be amicable. God teaches us to forgive and forget those who have harmed us, and instead, love and embrace them. Still, I like him very much, I wish I can do lovely things to make him laugh and smile again, but someone is already doing the job.

I will never know the cost of my sin on the cross you carry, Holy Father. I cry every night, but Lord, it is only through you then I can seek comfort and solace.

Was glad to go to church yesterday! Been wanting to go to church badly! Poor Pudge had to wait at Starhub for 1 hour and they couldn't even process her request! She wanted to cancel her M1 line, M1 told her to ask Starhub to do it, and now Starhub says they can't do it unless the original M1 line subscriber terminates it himself (which is Benny ChaCha). These nonsensical phone service providers.

Pudge took good care of me when we were making our way through the rain and the people to church, under her little pink umbro!! She was practically hugging me close to her, making sure no part of me got in contact with the rain. Such a sweetie pie!

And we were so happy to see Per in church! I miss her like crazy. Too bad Zech was on guard duty. After church Pudge, Pervert, Jacqueline and moi headed to Billy Bombers at The Cathay for dinner!!

Jacqueline ordered honey mustard fried chicken and I had a club sandwich. LOVE BREAD!!!

And as usual dear Pudge and Per ordered salad. How predictable.

Took a bus with Per for the first time!! Was a good bus ride, because I had so much to tell her, so much to hear from her. Darling, you can tell me anything, absolutely anything with no qualms, because I rather be well aware, well informed, than jump into a misunderstanding. I'm behind you all the way, and remember that God will light the way for his child; the child belongs to God, has an identity, and will never be lost.

Hope Kio has fun in the States. You must be hopping around in your Nautica windbreaker and Timberland shoes.

Went to Kepple Club to play golf at Bigwin!! On the way there, Regina was talking about chocolates and roses to Xian, Preston and Shi Ying were talking about possible fund-raising activities. Shi Jia and I? We were holding our presentation scripts, going to fall fast sleep at the back of the bus. This is what LTB (Leadership and Teambuilding) does to SMU students.

Regina doesn't really look forward to playing golf I suppose.

I barely swung 10 golf balls when the golf instructor announced that time was over. 1 hour to play golf only???? Waste my money lor! Instead of sticking around at my station and trying to master the technique of swinging the golf club properly, I was walking around the rest of the stations, speaking to classmates who weren't playing. In other words, socializing. I mean, golf is about networking, right?! Actually I was just very bored la. Then Xian kept laughing at me. Cos I kept swinging the stupid club, but the club didn't even make contact with the golf ball. And I felt like a total idiot, and laughed at myself. This is a guy thing la, cos Xian was able to hit the ball pretty far on a few occasions.

And my TA, Ronald, wasn't making it any better. Each time it was my turn to play, he would come over to take photographs of me! Damn pai seh can! He said I'm the classic - I'm quite positive he meant the classic golf idiot. Laughed at me for wearing a blouse and tights and ballet shoes to play golf. Haha I find it pretty amusing myself. I don't have a decent t-shirt (to wear out) or a polo shirt or a pair of sports shoes to wear to the golf course mah! And my motive is to do my group's presentation mah! Till I get the photos from Ronald then you guys can see how dumbo I looked while swinging those damned clubs.

We gave out bananas before our presentation, and everyone started laughing. We are the Garden Monkeys what! Monkeys enjoy bananas! Unfortunately we didn't managed to speak our parts as intended as there was a lack of time. That's why I hate it when I'm in the last group. Last group gets to speak the most little because the front groups eat so much time up in the beginning.

On the way back to school. Shi Jia looks tired. He's thinking about something intensely. No fret over gardening ok. Garden Monkeys will rock the house down!

And Shi Ying and I took a decent photo. Such a sweetie pie this girl.

Papa fetched Bern and me to Tampines Mall from school! Papa is so good to his little princess! The most supportive and loving dad in the whole wide world.

I have a conclusion: Bern is horrificably horny. When I wear jeans or skirt, she's always smacking my butt. And when I wear tights, it's worse. She pokes at my butt. She seems very excited when I wear tights.

Tell me, are Fillipinos extremely horny to people of the same sex? That's it, I am going to form an official alliance against Peanut. Pudge Pervert Pops will be doing an aggressive marketing campaign for "BUMS OF STEEL - YOURS TRULY, BERNADINE YONG."

Roy is getting married end of March. I hope he's going to have a great life with his woman and make Singapore a safer country!! Yeah!! But please spend more time with your folks ok. He is always so near yet so far from me. Everytime he's at Bedok or Tampines or Changi and we want to meet up, something always crops up and we never see each other at all. What happened? Why are our partners so possessive? They only end up ruining the precious friendships we had.

And Zhi Rong is another joker. I called him, but his friend spoke to me instead, and claimed that Rong had passed the phone to him. GUYS. Why do they like to go the round-about way when it comes to girls? WHATEVER. I DON'T LIKE GUYS MUCH ANYWAY. Except those that I'm close to. Rong cannot nag at me again because of the last sentence bahahahah.

I feel really sad about him. Why am I still crying over him? His intention is for me to hate him, but don't you see that there is a very thin, a very fine line between love and hate and that both words can co-exist together at certain times? And you think you'll feel good if I really end up hating you one day?

So many times, I look out of the window, and pause to think about our future. And a tear drops down my cheek. And more tears stream down. I don't want to think about how much I owed you in a previous lifetime, I just want to know, why are you doing this to me? You always say I'm a strong girl, but I think you just wanna get away scot-free with your debt. And even if I give you my blessings, it is accompanied by a lot of anger and bitterness. I don't even want to think about the sadness in your mother's voice when she asks me to visit her. You have disappointed everyone a great deal, that's all I have to say. Your disappointment saddens me, but worse, it does not let the one down under rest in whole peace. And that, my dear, is the darkest secret you got to hide, for the rest of your life.

Who cares if I smoke my life through? I don't give a damn anymore.

Met Pussy and Pudge on Wed. Pussy is Cynthia, in case you didn't know. Seems like the whole world needs so much more courage, so much more understanding, so much more patience, so much more determination when it comes to love. Love itself is not complicated; the humans who embrace it are complex by nature.

I don't like to see Cyn cry. After seeing her go through so much shit because of those condemned bastards, I feel, so much more resigned when it comes to love. So much disappointment sinks in because of the same old things: cigarettes, gambling, money, lies, negligence, selfishness. And I'm reminded of my own pain. Everyday, I'm desperately guessing the date the pain will go away.

This kind of ambiguity in love really makes us sick. Pudge has nearly nothing to say about our tragedies. Humans are so skeptical when they've been through a whole of nonsense from people they love. I have to agree, it makes us stronger, and we emerge testifying as evidence of God's wonderful plans for all his children.

Right now, I'm in the process of growing stronger - or weaker. I don't know. I don't know how to answer questions anymore.

I was so delighted to meet Angie and Lester at Armenian Street yesterday. Gave both of them a good hug. It's so good to see people who truly care.

Today, Peanut and I went to the new Supreme Court! Totally awesome the interior architecture. We felt strongly for the justice and equality of law, and attended a court hearing. We had to place our bags in the x-ray machine and stand on a mat while being screened by a dumb metal ring. I can't believe it. The bloody employer who abused her maid got away scot-free! I'm sorry Peanut, I already got the best lawyer in the entire U.K. to defend you. I knew it, your bloody ma'am bribed the judge. I will send you some money when you are back in the Phillipines, hugs.

Notti Peanut. Who ask you to keep calling me Olive. What's wrong with all of you guys, I AM NOT POPEYE'S GIRLFRIEND! I can't help it if my figure is not proportionate. You think I like having skinny limbs and a fat body!!!

Bought a red top from m)phosis today! Been eyeing it since I saw it at Vivocity. I bought it for $6 cheaper at Parco Bugis! I think they really market the price up at Vivocity, be smart, and get the stuff you want elsewhere, same brand, lower price.

And I'm going to play golf at Kepple Club tomorrow! I'm going to do some serious business, really serious stuff, with my LTB professor and 7 guys, on the golf course tomorrow. My LTB poster presentation. Just watch out for the Garden Monkeys!

Jie flew to Florida last Thursday. Once again, I'm feeling really lousy. I hate it when Jie is out of the country. And when she's in the States, it's worse. I have to log in to MSN in the middle of the night, or way up early in the morning. And the connection is so poor I can only exchange barely 10 decent lines with her. When she returns to Singapore she's going to tell me oh I'm leaving for Shanghai in 7 days and I'm going to shoot her an ugly pout.

I miss Jie so much. I think I will cry at her wedding.

It's been one year and 8 days since his death. I'm thinking, I've been deploring about his passing, till this very second. On his death anniversary, where were the human beings who said they loved him and would remember him forever? And I was left alone to sing the sad lament in my heart, desperately trying to find a chance to scream, wail, bawl, mourn and dispense whatever dsyphoria left within. I never received the chance; I didn't really wanted the chance. Enough anguish were seen before his death, how could I introduce more distress after the funeral is over? Michelle, you're up there in the great skies, I only wish, you'll give him the peace he deserves so much.

The 4ps reunited at The Pizza Place at Raffles Marketplace on Tuesday, the day after the 3ps chilled at Starbucks Coffee at Raffles City.

As expected, Pudge ordered salad. Peanut and I have huge issues with her new found diet. Just look at Pervert's face and you know why. How can lettuce suffice for a meal, everyday?? Pudge has lost a lot of weight because of work already. Stupid SSC, what have they done to my Pudge? And that braces guy - I'll never let him off, seriously.

Peanut is very happy to eat! And I'm happy to see my favourite girls!

The twinnies! Eh we look like hamsters in this shot.

SMUggers. That's all I have to say since school started.

Week 2, Term 2, Monday. I finally managed to eat my favourite Subway Melt at Raffles City!!

Monday is the only day of the week where Bern and I have the exact time schedule. And coincidentally dear Prissie was free to meet up with us! Just my day!

And Ru Ru!! How can I miss out on her! As usual, Liang was reluctant to take pictures. I'm still sad Ru and Liang have only one class with me. When Year 2 arrives, I will have my one big family reunite!!

At Starbucks smoking. HAHA, kidding la. I'm the only bad girl in the group huh.

Pris and Peanut are having a serious discusssion about this guy who wears braces.

I don't like the raspberry frapuccino, but Pris apparrently think it's good. I'm merely playing along to her.

For my ladies:

One meet-up can make us uber high easily, and we arrange another one immediately - for the next day.

We met yesterday, and we met again today. She's almost my official girlfriend. As I'm blogging, she's telling me not to blog and go read up on my Calculus notes. Calculus freaks me out so bad I'm just going to wait for my nicey Prof to teach me tomorrow. Which is a Saturday. SMU is a freak school which makes their students return for make-up lessons on Saturdays. FREAK.

Yesterday I met up with Yan Ling!! Like, FINALLY!! And guess what, Wei Min couldn't make it!! The previous time Ling couldn't make it, now Min cannot make it, all because of work!! SIAN MAN. It'll be quite some time before ALL THREE OF US can have a good catching-up session.

A close up of Yan Ling. She is talking to her boyfriend on the phone but she looks really exhausted.

I'm really happy we're still in contact after such a loonngggggggggggggggg time. Always feels great talking to her because she listens to me so attentively like an elder sister. And we still can talk about everything under the moon. It's gonna be that way for a long long time. Wurvvee.

I can't believe I forgot to upload all my Christmas day pictures. When I completed all the collages so darn long ago. To think I was so excited to show them all to my folks, and I forgot about it, thinking I had forgotten my sister's pictures instead (and of course I went ahead working on the more recently taken pics). A fool. Nonetheless, this entry is a MUST. For the bona5ide gang, love.

Prissie is MOTHER MARY! Idiot she looks like she's being forced to take this picture. I did not force her ok. Perhaps she wanted to act 'virginal', since Mother Mary, after all, is supposed to be a virgin. Eh, no go for you la, Pris.

Did you guys actually think I was quietly seated, peacefully watching the play? No way when my best friend was right in front acting in a Christmas skit. I made at least 6 different funny faces to Pris and she NEARLY burst out laughing in the middle of the play. She was supposed to look serious, that's why I made fun of her. Peanut kept nudging me and scolded me for being so evil.

Later did I realise, that Pris' mum actually noticed that I made many funny faces to her daughter during the play! TOTALLY LAO KUI. By the way, Pris' mum was sitting next to me in church. I should have known. But I would still go ahead with my plans anyway. LOL.

Immediately after Holy Communion ended, the phones and cameras warmed up quickly.

P.S. I wish I had nice boobs like PXXX.

And vain Prissie changed into her spanking new Frontier dress after getting a whole lotta kick being Mother Mary for half-an-hour.

Dearie, it is your day, your night, so I'm pleased to post a solo photography of you.

At first it was just the 3 of us.

Then we dragged the rest in.

Our poor photographer? Pamela! She got turned off by our faces so she snapped our legs instead. Do you know which legs belong to me?

And because it's Christmas which celebrates the birth of Christ and salvation for all men on earth, we just wanna say again, WE LOVE JESUS!!!!

How did we celebrate Christmas? Call us dull, but we don't believe in joining the mad crowd at clubs on Christmas Eve and being accidentally molested by bangras. We advocate: your very own best friends' company.

We made fun of PXXX boobs the entire time. Per and Peanuts couldn't stop attempting to take photos of her cleavage. Poor Zech, he must have felt really awkward. Then again, he is prolly already accustomed to our unique behaviour in public. Look at the collages above and you'll understand why I consider him as part of 'ma girls'.

I say, my girls are really horny and erotic la. You can conclude I'm a sad victim of their horniness sometimes too, even if I'm an airport runway. EVERYTHING turns them on, you see.

The night didn't end for me after all of us parted. Per and Zech chilled at a pub while I talked to Spartan at the void deck till 6.30am. My parents were already awake when I got home. And I didn't sleep. I called Per she put me on loudspeaker and the 3 of us starting talking nonsense in the early morning. That is, what I call, a proper life after all those nights of sobbing over some stupid ass. Where I'm constantly preoccupied so I won't have the energy or space to dwell on things that make me cry.

I missed Per so much when she flew to Bangkok. I even dreamt we went shopping together, something we haven't done in ages. This is for you honey.

I know you're very occupied with work and church, now that my school has started, it is going to be a lot more difficult to see you as often. I'm more sad.