Saturday, 2nd Dec 2006
Went to Perryn's church today. Worship and service was awesome!! The band is really rockin', the singers are so devoted to sing their hearts out for God! Topic for the day: Covered in the dust of the Rabbi.
The truth is, I've missed out on 6 years of church praise and worship, I no longer know which books are in the Old Testament and which books are in the New Testament. When I was still attending church, I made it a point not to flip to the contents page, but rather, to find the book manually so I would be able to remember its location better next time. Now, I don't even know if Numbers is after Deutronomy or Matthews is before Leviticus. Malachi is an unfamiliar word to me. Per and Jacqualyn had to help me to locate the books during service. SO EMBARRASSING. This shows how long I haven't touched my bible, opened it, and that a lack of practice will results in a loss of skill. HAIZ.
Yerron bullied me!! So mean such that I was a guest at his church not only did he not play a pleasant host to me he kept harping on how mean was I not to invite him to my birthday celebration. Because he had accepted me on friendster so he should have been part of the party goers. OMG.
Yerron: (stands and scolds) Athena!! I don't want to friend you! You never invite me to your birthday!!
Athena: Ahh!!! (pouts) You still on this topic ah!! I already told you if I invite you then I'll have to invite all of my friends' siblings and you know Xiu Li has 7 other siblings I'll be super broke can!!
Yerron: But I'm different!!
Athena: And why are you different? Cos you're Perryn's brother right?
Yerron: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Cos I accepted you on Friendster. Your friends' siblings never accepted you on Friendster so I'm different!!!!!!!
Athena: Wah lao like that also can ahz!! But you also treat me not very nice lei, you say you don't welcome me to your house and that you won't open the door for me when I come!!!
Yerron: YOU NEVER INVITE ME TO YOUR BIRTHDAY!! I ACCEPTED YOU ON FRIENDSTER, I DON'T FRIEND YOU LIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yerron walks away.
I think of something that happened a few months ago and relates it to Perryn, Audrey and Jacqualyn.
1 message received >> Inbox >> Perryn
I don't friend you anymore.
Athey's Thoughts: What? Sounds damn Yerron lor. Now 1am liao, Perryn confirm sleeping lor, she got work the next day. So wu liao mehz. Don't care lah.
After a few minutes.
Athey's Thoughts: WTF. Perryn won't do this kind of shit.
9******9
Per: (sleepy voice) Hulllo...............
Athena: Wei why you send me this kind of msg what don't friend me liao??????????
Per: Ah my stupid brother send one.........(shouting in the background begins)
Yerron: HELLO ATHENA!! My sister don't want to friend you anymore she says you're very bad. We don't welcome you to our house already next time I won't open the door for you. You also don't call my sister already she don't want to friend you. My sister say you're a very bad girl.
Athena: (super stunned) Wah lao is your sister invite me to the house and it's not your house and it's your maid that opens the door anyway not you la!! Unless I hear it from Perryn herself that she don't want to friend me then I believe you keep quiet la!!
Yerron: (Per starts arguing in the background) No need my sister don't want to friend you I help her convey the message already you don't call her already ok.
Athena: Wah lao just bcos you never eat pizza then you say all these.
Per: Aiya my stupid brother!! Don't care about what he says.
Yerron shouts, "Athena is bad girl I don't want to friend her she never invite me!!" Athena: Wah, he super ultimate leyz wonder how you can stand him. I already run out of things to rebutt him hahahahahahaha
Seriously, Yerron is full of shit la. He reminds me of the times in primary school where boys were always against girls and vice versa and this is how both groups would argue their way over stupid things. I think hor, next time I must really bring this little boy out and treat him to a good meal then he will stop bugging me over this issue! ARGHHHHHZZ. Must be quite entertaining to have such a brother at home sometimes I think. But the irritating aspect overwhelms everything else, so NO THANKS AT ALL. Good luck Perryn.
Met Bern at Toa Payoh Central after church. Reminded me so much of my birthday last year and how I walked through the streets despite a bleeding dislodged toe nail. Couldn't even bring myself to look at the small garden where he asked me for a dance. MELODRAMA LA ATHENA FORGET THIS FUCKING JERK. Okay I was telling Bern all about my sister's father-in-law and how he said the word 'erection' at least 4 times real loud in Changi Airport. Really laughed like mad lor.
Was supposed to meet Zhi Rong for supper but I was dead beat when I reached home. Spoke to Ah Liang on the line for one and a half hours. I thought I would be super super tired and would sleep throughout the night way till morning. I've been attempting to adjust my biological clock to a more healthy momentum.
Sunday, 3rd Dec 2006
BUT!! **bei I woke up at 5am again!! Ended up watching Full House DVD. Casually msg Yubin on MSN and he suggested breakfast at MacDonald's. Had Big Breakfast - think cold scrambled eggs, burnt bread, soggy hashbrown and dry beef patty. Totally unappetizing. Nothing ever taste good to me anymore. Which is good cos I can afford to lose more weight, anyway.
Had a horrible day today. Crying the whole day even when I was out. Went to M5 Concept but didn't get anything signed.
You will never know how it feels like to stand in the middle of the street, to break down and cry, and your heart has sunken so bad you don't even care if the entire world's eyes are fixed upon you. You will never know how it feels for me to swallow all his hurt and still put on a brave front to everyone. You will never know the kindness of love, cos you only bring the opposite of it - hate.
I think it will be ages before my clock can be normal again. Haiz. I have to seriously consider seeking help for my extreme insomnia as well. It's 4.49am now. Going to watch Full House now!!
