Went to Kepple Club to play golf at Bigwin!! On the way there, Regina was talking about chocolates and roses to Xian, Preston and Shi Ying were talking about possible fund-raising activities. Shi Jia and I? We were holding our presentation scripts, going to fall fast sleep at the back of the bus. This is what LTB (Leadership and Teambuilding) does to SMU students.

Regina doesn't really look forward to playing golf I suppose.

I barely swung 10 golf balls when the golf instructor announced that time was over. 1 hour to play golf only???? Waste my money lor! Instead of sticking around at my station and trying to master the technique of swinging the golf club properly, I was walking around the rest of the stations, speaking to classmates who weren't playing. In other words, socializing. I mean, golf is about networking, right?! Actually I was just very bored la. Then Xian kept laughing at me. Cos I kept swinging the stupid club, but the club didn't even make contact with the golf ball. And I felt like a total idiot, and laughed at myself. This is a guy thing la, cos Xian was able to hit the ball pretty far on a few occasions.

And my TA, Ronald, wasn't making it any better. Each time it was my turn to play, he would come over to take photographs of me! Damn pai seh can! He said I'm the classic - I'm quite positive he meant the classic golf idiot. Laughed at me for wearing a blouse and tights and ballet shoes to play golf. Haha I find it pretty amusing myself. I don't have a decent t-shirt (to wear out) or a polo shirt or a pair of sports shoes to wear to the golf course mah! And my motive is to do my group's presentation mah! Till I get the photos from Ronald then you guys can see how dumbo I looked while swinging those damned clubs.

We gave out bananas before our presentation, and everyone started laughing. We are the Garden Monkeys what! Monkeys enjoy bananas! Unfortunately we didn't managed to speak our parts as intended as there was a lack of time. That's why I hate it when I'm in the last group. Last group gets to speak the most little because the front groups eat so much time up in the beginning.

On the way back to school. Shi Jia looks tired. He's thinking about something intensely. No fret over gardening ok. Garden Monkeys will rock the house down!

And Shi Ying and I took a decent photo. Such a sweetie pie this girl.

Papa fetched Bern and me to Tampines Mall from school! Papa is so good to his little princess! The most supportive and loving dad in the whole wide world.

I have a conclusion: Bern is horrificably horny. When I wear jeans or skirt, she's always smacking my butt. And when I wear tights, it's worse. She pokes at my butt. She seems very excited when I wear tights.

Tell me, are Fillipinos extremely horny to people of the same sex? That's it, I am going to form an official alliance against Peanut. Pudge Pervert Pops will be doing an aggressive marketing campaign for "BUMS OF STEEL - YOURS TRULY, BERNADINE YONG."

Roy is getting married end of March. I hope he's going to have a great life with his woman and make Singapore a safer country!! Yeah!! But please spend more time with your folks ok. He is always so near yet so far from me. Everytime he's at Bedok or Tampines or Changi and we want to meet up, something always crops up and we never see each other at all. What happened? Why are our partners so possessive? They only end up ruining the precious friendships we had.

And Zhi Rong is another joker. I called him, but his friend spoke to me instead, and claimed that Rong had passed the phone to him. GUYS. Why do they like to go the round-about way when it comes to girls? WHATEVER. I DON'T LIKE GUYS MUCH ANYWAY. Except those that I'm close to. Rong cannot nag at me again because of the last sentence bahahahah.

I feel really sad about him. Why am I still crying over him? His intention is for me to hate him, but don't you see that there is a very thin, a very fine line between love and hate and that both words can co-exist together at certain times? And you think you'll feel good if I really end up hating you one day?

So many times, I look out of the window, and pause to think about our future. And a tear drops down my cheek. And more tears stream down. I don't want to think about how much I owed you in a previous lifetime, I just want to know, why are you doing this to me? You always say I'm a strong girl, but I think you just wanna get away scot-free with your debt. And even if I give you my blessings, it is accompanied by a lot of anger and bitterness. I don't even want to think about the sadness in your mother's voice when she asks me to visit her. You have disappointed everyone a great deal, that's all I have to say. Your disappointment saddens me, but worse, it does not let the one down under rest in whole peace. And that, my dear, is the darkest secret you got to hide, for the rest of your life.

Who cares if I smoke my life through? I don't give a damn anymore.