Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Sunshine is very ill. He may leave us anytime, as early as 3 days. He can't even climb inside his food bowl to eat. I had to feed him manually because he can't move very well. He can't even sleep properly. He sleeps lope-sided with eyes wide open in pain. It happened so fast. Three days ago he was still fat, furry and cute, constantly stuffing his face with sunflower seeds. Now his greediness is torturing him and his system is all mangled up. My vision blurred when I see how he wriggled his thin body towards my fingers holding his food. I failed as a responsible owner. I was so busy with school that I didn't notice his health was failing. If I had done something earlier, perhaps I could save him a little bit of pain. I couldn't even accompany him to the vet. We nearly lost his heartbeat at the clinic and the doctor had to pump oxygen in the poor little creature. My sister returned home with 3 types of medicine. For one, frail hamster. He had to be fed at least 6 times a day. If he survives these three days on a slim 20% chance, he'll be alright. What if he doesn't? I need him. The other one has already left my world. Now another beloved is struggling with life. I am truly alone, forever.
it's Wednesday, September 17, 2008 now
